When I was a child, the story of "Jonah and the big fish" always fascinated me. Fascinated me to the point that the pages of that story are well worn, torn, tattered and taped in the children's picture bible I still own. As a child, I took this story at face value, not really analyzing what exactly the story meant or how it could apply to my life as it was.
Now that I am older, hopefully wiser and more analytical, I am able to take such stories and dig deeper. It has occurred to me that often in this world, I found myself feeling a bit like Jonah. Afraid, and reluctant to do what I knew I needed to do. I ran as fast as I could in alternate directions to what God was truly calling me to. Attempting to lull out the calling to living a better, more wholesome life, I turned to worldly pursuits. Like men. Like parties. Like music so loud I couldn't even hear myself think. Like friends who were doing the exact same thing as I.
Why is it that the thought of being called to something higher causes something within us to freak out, and run away!
Maybe it's the unknown. Maybe it's the foolish thinking that "I know what's best for me". Maybe it's just us being childish and stubborn. Whatever it may be, the important thing is that we recognize our Jonah-like tendencies. If I have learned one thing in my social work education, and in life in general...cliche coming at you!....the first step is admitting you have a problem.
This is logical! Why would you think to fix something that you do not believe is broken?
It is only when we realize that we are afraid, stubborn and running away that we can truly analyze what the situation actually is. Once we know we are running we can establish:
1. What am I running from?
2. What about this situation makes me feel afraid/uncomfortable?
3. God says in Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight"...am I truly doing this?
Ultimately, God knows what he's doing. Whether he sends a whale to eat you for 3 days and barf you on a shore, or whether he uses more subtle tactics like gentle persuasions within your heart, as long as deeper understanding is sought, you will find it. It is ok to feel uneasy about what you are being called to, God gets that! Be honest with him and tell him "I am scared right now, but I love you and I trust you."
Loving father, I pray that you bless my endeavors today. Let me to see your face in everyone that I meet. Allow me to complete my tasks according to your will with strength and boldness. Yes Jesus, I love you. Amen.
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